As I was wrapping up my bible study and time with God today I felt the need to share a very personal and intimate part of my life.
With Mother’s day just being celebrated I had to write.
For the past few weeks, a lot of my daily walk with Jesus (bible study and listening to sermons), have revolved around a woman who may have experienced the emotional hardship of infertility. Women who were barren but the Lord answered their prayers and blessed them with a child.
Sarah who eventually had Isaac.
Rebekah (Isaac’s wife) who eventually had Jacob and Esau.
Hannah who eventually had Samuel.
Elizabeth who had John the Baptist.
This is a personal one for me as I too have struggled with not being able to have a child.
And what makes it even more challenging is my desire to be a Proverbs 31:10-31 woman.
I can sympathize with Sarah who was angry at not being able to have a child.
I can sympathize with Hannah who wept bitterly and bargained with God to have a child.
I can sympathize with Elizabeth in her sadness of infertility.
I can sympathize with all of those women in the world who have been labeled as I have as barren and been laughed at, mocked or scorned.
I can sympathize.
And like the feeling of losing someone in your life, you really can’t relate unless you have been in the same situation.
But, I am here to give you hope.
The ladies all mentioned above received answers to their prayers and born miracle babies. So I have hope, even as I think of one woman in the bible who did not. Her name was Michal. She was the daughter of King Saul and David’s first wife. But you see, even in this sad story, the all-powerful and all-knowing God that we serve is, was and will always be in control.
King Saul’s reign died with him and there was no other child to take his place. Michal didn’t have children because if she did then David wouldn’t have become King.
God had a plan. He knew how history would unfold.
The same way how he has a plan for you and I. I don’t know why I can’t have children (scientifically I hear what the Doctor’s say but my God is one of miracles and wonder… he created all things after all!) but my hope is in the knowledge and firm belief that “in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
So in all things my sisters in Christ, we wait. Because our God tells us to be still and wait.
God has an amazing plan for me. And I am so excited about my future! Don’t give up. God loves you and HE hears your cry!
Thoughts: “Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.” Isaiah 40:28-29
Prayer: God of love, hear the cries of your servants. Heal their pain. Calm their minds and hearts. Lord as we go about our daily lives and see others with what we ourselves desire may we not be bitter or angry, but may we rejoice and praise you knowing that all things will work not only for our good but also for the furtherance of your kingdom. In Jesus name. Amen
God’s grace, mercy and peace to you.