Freedom from the sex toys
I am coming out y’all. And let me tell you, my book was a tell all but the Lord commanded me to write this because He needs someone to also find freedom. As I obey, I pray that God will be glorified.
Two years ago I am sitting in my office. Overworked, stressed out and on the precipice of a burnout. Three young ladies are sitting in my office having a lively conversation about their plans for the weekend. I hear their voices in the background as I feverishly type on my keyboard to respond to yet another request from someone who wanted a waiver from the country’s regulated quarantine. “That rose is going to be put to work,” I hear with squeals of laughter following. Murmuring trying to join in the conversation I ask, “Rose. Who is that?”
Silence.
Two quickly shot up and darted for the door pealing with laughter. Confused I stopped typing and looked up. The third had a big grin on her face and sighed, “Google it.” She departed. Focus quickly diverted, I answered a phone call and got lost in the madness of work. That night one of my good friends called. In the conversation he shares something amazing he did for his wife. This jogged my memory. So I repeated to him what happened earlier in the day.
This man laughed for about 2 minutes. I am looking at the phone at this point because I realize that I am missing something here. So I asked Mr. Google. I was shocked. One that this conversation took place in my office but also that there were things out there like this. My friend trying to catch his breath exclaimed, “This is why we love you. You are so brilliant but yet so innocent.” I was very embarrassed.
Skip to two months later. I travel to his family home and his mom gives me a gift from him. She says, “I don’t know what it is but it is some rose it says on the box!” My friend, I was ready for my Savior to collect me. Dig a whole in the ground and kill me now! I quickly took the package from her, kissed her and left the building. He had a riot over this! The man couldn’t stop laughing.
The Trap
But my curiosity got the best of me. Like truly what is all of this hype. Girl, I tried it and experienced something I didn’t in 42 years of living! Ten joyful experiences later (yes, I counted my Stella got her groove back moments with this Rose) I still couldn’t resolve my unrest. Something wasn’t right. But in my mind I couldn’t understand why…. After all I was still abstinent, 10 years and counting. I was never going to get married again so this was fine.
But God.
Can I tell you? God is jealous for you! God told me, “You will get married again.” I said, “The devil is a liar because there is no way my God could have said that to me.” I felt the Holy Spirit smiling. But the more I resisted God and used this thing the more I felt as if I was grieving the Holy Spirit. It was as if I couldn’t feel Him as much. On my knees I started talking to God. Why was this a problem? This made no sense to me.
God’s Answer
And then I heard His answer that froze everything within me.
‘I am holy. And it is my spirit that lives within you.’
I cried out! Down on my knees I broke down in tears and prayer. Every time I did that, the Holy Spirit was right there. How could I defile the temple of the Holy Spirit? He won’t reside in disobedience.
Immediately I threw it away. I had a choice. Do I choose the idol or do I choose God? For me and my house, I will always choose God. (Joshua 24:15) God has been too good and faithful for me to give Him up for fleeting pleasure. My rain of blessings always comes with full obedience. So I choose Him.
Let us pray
Spirit of the Living Lord. You are Holy. Your Word tells us that the devil is prowling and waiting to devour us. Waiting to trap us in sin. We have forgotten who we are in Christ. We are chosen. We are a peculiar people. Royal priesthood. A masterpiece, fearfully and wonderfully made. Created to do good works. We are marked and sealed. Redeemed. Blessed. Loved. Holy. And filled with the Holy Spirit. This is all in Your Word. Thank You, Lord for reminding us who we are in Christ. Lord, seal this on our hearts. Free the person reading this today. The devil wants to remove our blessing and purpose but He can’t have it. Renew a steadfast spirit within us as we resubmit ourselves wholly to You. Today I declare freedom. In the name of Jesus whatever sin is trapping the person reading this, they are now free. Free from drugs, alcohol, adultery, porn, lies, stealing, pride, greed, or lust. Your Word says that nothing unclean will ever enter heaven, nor anyone who does what is detestable or false, but only those who are written in the Lamb’s book of life. May our names be written, Jesus. Amen 🙏🏾